Close your eyes

Close your eyes , open your heart and pray :DDDDD

I do alot of thinking before i sleep . I play scenes in my head , practise the things i wanna say . I have endless what "ifs" , i make plans for the next day . I think of the people i miss and hate . I ask myself alot of questions . Most importantly , i think about you , us and everything we once had ♥

Sometimes , i really wish you were by my side when i need a shoulder .
Don't give me false hopes . And , i thank you for that .

OKAY . Before this gets too far-fetched .. hi readers !! ^^

Lemme explain . I'm not confessing to someone or whatever bullshit . Just feel like , typing out all these nonsensical stuffs . Okay nonsense whatever :PPP , LOL .

Nothing happening much these days . Hmm had fun yesterday , pretty slackish and all . Didn't go pool though , jiayun can't go . But yea , there's always a 2nd chance babe :DDD . So you didn't spoil the plans okaaaaay . We still had fun and all yeaaa :') ♥

And finally term tests are over . No more stressful afternoons , nights and mornings for now . Finally :DDDDDD *pops champagne*

Don't know what to update .. so ending this post with this photo ,

Make a guess , who's that ?

Kay bye :DD . Update next week !

FIND ME @ TWITTER OR FACEBOOK .

Pool.

POOL. POOL. POOL.

Probably tomorrow. ♥ ;)
With Sabrina, Arinah, Joshua, Rifqi, Farahin & Jiayun.
Jiayun must goooo. Bodoh! Gooooo okaaay. ^^

Crazy laughter.

SMILE, BE HAPPY AND GO CRAZY. :D

Hello loveliessssss. ♔

Wasssssup! How's life, LOL. Pretty busy these days, studying and all. But yeah, still had fun with friends and stuffs like that. Had so much fun annoying my dear Sabrina. Poor thing, HAHA. xD i was the annoying orange hahaha. Fun ttmax, ttcore! ♥

Anyway, just wanna share something with you all now. :)

" Me without you is like, cookie monster w/o its cookies, spongebob w/o patrick and annoying orange with no apple to annoy. It's impossible. "

Inspirations came from : Sabrina and Joshua. The starting "me w/o you" is from them. So, how's that ^ ? LOL. The theme is like those cute characters, hehe. I think it's kinda cute. :P

LASTLY, PRESENTING COOKIEMONSTER! ★

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All these pictures reminds me of my cookiemonster cartoon tee, which i'll be collecting tomo. Excited max, gah! (i'm in love with cookiemonster, keke xD) That's all readers! Have a nice weekend. Bye. I'll be back! SAY COOKIEMONSTER, YAY. :)

Live, laugh, love.

Helloooo people. ♥ :**
Music is my fuckin' life. :)

Okay, lemme update.

1. Been busy with all the tests coming and homework. How better can life get man. LOL. But today was awesome :) played in the rain with sabrina, joshua, rifqi and zul after school, slacked at bb court first, then it started raining, so yeah. (y) Quite fun, but I wasn't used to the wetness though. LMAO. But still, it was fun. Hope we can do it sometime again~ ^-^

2. Had P.E today too! Badminton hehehe. Fun too! :D LOL, sabrina epic man. Trip on herself, then fall on her butt. I was LMFAO, ROFL, LOL-ING. Luckily not whole class see, everyone busy playing badminton, if not she'd become the laughing stock of the day. :D

3. Lastly, I got 15/20 for Science test! ♥ A1, yay. \m/

Will be even busier for the next 2 weeks, term tests coming. Homework to settle. Studies would be my first priority from now onwards. (hopefully) (y)

AND YES. I HAVE SUCH A STRONG URGE TO GO SHOPPING OMG. Apparently, I've got a list of things I wanna have/need to do.

I wanna have

• New school bag ; Black!
  
• New school shoes ; converse babe.
• Roulailai wallet/transparent wallet (black)
  
• BABY G WATCH.
• My nokia x3 hotpink.
  
• My cartoon tees to arrive.
• Get an ipod. Music yay. \m/
• More money to go shopping.
  

I need to

• Score well for my tests.
• Get Roxanne's belated present. :)
• Manage my time.
• Continue to hang out with my awesome friends. (y)
• That's all for the time being.
  

/hinthint/ Get me something from the "I wanna have" list for my bday, 24 May. :P

See, so many things. I'm greedy? I know, you don't need to tell me that luh.
Will not be online often, will be updating fb & twitter thru' phone.

Hehe, that's all uh :) update next week again. Wish me luck for my tests! ♥ :**

Oh boy, the feeling is coming back. Gahgahgah. I miss you like hell loads. I wonder why .. Why is the feeling constantly coming back? Oh nonono. I know you'd never be mine, I'm thinking too much. Reality hurts. Truth hurts. I wanna be happy.

BYE PEOPLE! :D My facebook & twitter. ♥
Gone with the wind, i'll be back soon. 8D

Everything's gonna be alright.

THIS GUITAR IS DAMN COOL, PINK'D BE EVEN BETTER THOUGH.
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Everything's gonna be alright.

Hmm, I guess it already is. Hello people! ♥♥♥

Firstly, I wanna thank those who kinda' cheer me up : (not in any order)

JINGYEE, TIFFANY, WANTING, HESTER AND ROXANNE :**

Thanks people, hohoho. ^^ moving on!

Gah. I can't believe that the CNY break is almost over! Too fast~ Hahaha. I wish we had 2 weeks of break cause' CNY is actually 2 weeks. :B but nah, it's not gonna happen. Huhu~ D: but anyway, had fun with computer these days. (But not that kind of "have fun" uh.)

Okay, anyway ...

I LOVE TWITTER ; UNFAITHFULGIRLZ. :D

Find me there alright! Awesome. Especially last night. Chatted with Hester and PuiLing, hoho! Oh btwww, Hester, cheerup okay! Curry won't want to see you like this! ^^

Okay, that's all. Hah. School's starting tomo, gah. .____. Wish me luckluck on all my tests! Gonna be superb busy for the next few weeks, sad. :(

Byeeeeee, enjoy your last day of holiday today! :D

Lowest point of my life.

For someone I liked, *past tense* from today onwards :

I swear i'm at the lowest point of my fucking life. o__o

Everything started from last night.

“ Why can't you stand in my shoes and think about how I feel? Why do you want to side to your friends? My attiude is bad, you told me. But have you thought about these :

• Was my attitude like that in the first place, before yesterday?
• Why did my attitude became like this?

I know i'm just a friend to you, or who knows, maybe even less. But why can't you show alittle bit more of concern to me, even thou' i'm just your friend. Is it too much? Stand in my shoes and think about this.

Your friends pranked me. Many times, but never was there even once that you take the initiative to text me, saying something that goes : Hey. Sorry. My friends did that just now. No, never, i had to text back, saying : Is that your friend? And your answer would always be yes. Why, can't you just stop your friends from doing so? Why can't you even tell me what had happened? Why is it always me the one who must text you first, asking about what happened. And all I get in return? A flat and cold yes, no, or this face (o.o) .

Maybe you think that I know and understand what happened. :/

But no, I really don't. I'm just a girl. A typical one, who wants your fucking care and concern.

And when I finally couldn't take it anymore, complained and whined to you, the only sentence I wanna hear is this : Look, everything's gonna be alright. Not, relax, chill, or whatsoever. And the last thing I wanna hear, came out of your mouth :

Can you stop showing me this attitude?

WHY. IS. IT. LIKE. THAT. :/

I know maybe i was overboard to scold your friend that pranked me. But do you know that you're the first, i swear, in my entire life, saying this to me? Do you know it makes me feel so bad about myself and to you too? Do you know that I was moodless the whole day, I can't concentrate on whatever I'm doing. Be it, revising or doing homework. Do you know how empty my heart felt after hearing that? DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW I FUCKING FEEL BEFORE COMMENTING ABOUT MY PERSONALITY/CHARACTER?

I swear I was never like that to my friends. You took me for granted. I didn't. I'm not pushing all the blame to you. I just wanna blog out how I feel before I can't take it anymore. I don't expect you to change. I don't expect you to text me again, and vice versa. I don't expect you to apologise.

Everything would be my fault. I give up. My heart is dead. ”

That's all I wanna say. Maybe I'm taking things too seriously, maybe i'm being too sensitive. Hah. But who even gives me a damn about me?The old me is gone. Gone forever.

And for all you know, I know you don't even *like* me back. My wishful thinking. How naive was I, thinking that I might be yours, someday. I WAS a naive girl, not anymore.

* Currently I'm in the off mode. I won't talk to anyone, unnecessary. *

Maybe not. Why for a fucking bastard? Hah.

It's time to move on.

Been too wishy-washy with stuffs.

Hello people. IT'S CNY EVEEEEEEEEEEE. :D got money already and my hands are itchy! I wanna go shopping. Hehehehe. ♥ okay, but sadly, i still have got homework and tests coming! I finished all my hmk already. So it's the tests part! Study soonsoonsoon. Wish me luck! :)

I don't know what's wrong with me. I don't know why the feelings are coming. I don't know why you're hot and cold to me. I don't what to do. I'm lost. Can i spend my valentine time wih you? I wanna be your girl. Hah, but it's impossible. I know. Reality sucks.

That's all then. Hoho, bye lovelies! ^_~